Nocturne Prince

Faster Is Better

Few days ago I dreamt my Coki was drowned. In my dream I could save him. Oh My God…. You know what my prayers for you each time I make a pledge… I still want my dog-brothers to be with me 10 or more years… I want to be beside them when they leave me… I haven’t done so much for them… Please protect them always my God…

Give protection to my family also.. Though this time I beg You to let me leave this world first before them…

She… Seems she keep blaming me for everything I do.. She never likes it… I don’t and will never understand why…. Those words said to me come out so easy from her mouth whenever she’s angry at me… But I will not care…

I feel like time isn’t much anymore… I really can’t to keep waiting and waiting… Even though I get no supports from those around me… I can’t give up… I think I’m too much different from them…

지유아~ 넌 할수있어!!! 꿈이 많아요~ 난 열심히 할겠습니다!! 화이팅!!!

WooHyuk Released From Army!

Yes! Finally! Along with Kim JongMin, both were released from army on 18th of December. I’ve been longing for him to comeback!! 우혁이오빠~~ Get some rest, enjoy your time and please make a great comeback soon. Also don’t forget to meet HeeJun at Intimate Note! I want to see you dance on the stage!!!

This Is It!

Yeah, Michael’s This Is It. I just watched it yesterday and it was awesome! A concert-film-documentary about his rehearsal for his sold out concert tickets. Behind the scene of concert’s rehearsal in theater? Only Michael can do this.

I did really enjoy the movie, I enjoyed his songs and made me want to dance but I started shedding tears when he sang Human Nature, I’ll Be There and a few line of Speechless. His voice was amazing! His dance was more than awesome!! Along with the dancers, they were incredibly amazing!!

Honestly… I’m kinda speechless. I can’t find any words to describe how great he was… On stage … and off stage…

He knew his music and he wanted the perfect one! He wanted to be the same with the album! He sometimes brought laughter for all the people around him and I really love it when they teased him and he laughed! He often said “Love”, “God Bless You”… He’s so beautiful…

And he was so healthy… He danced so well… I’m not sure… He did have big hands but this time I felt that his hands were bigger than usual… Or it’s just my feeling…

The King of Pop, the awesome music, the amazing dancers, the stage set-the lighting, the fire set, the short movies, it definitely would have been tremendous! It would have been an unforgotten concert…

He is truly a TRUE PERFORMER…

But everything was vanished… We all lost him… I only can ask to my own self why it was only a rehearsal… Why…. Until now I still can’t feel or even imagine that he’s already gone… Michael…

Stephen…..

So… he’s gone too… How many times do I have to write such story in my memory…

I grew up listening to the western music… english music. Pop, rock, punk, etc… So yeah… I listened to Boyzone. I loved and still love their songs.. In fact before I liked Ronan, Stephen was my first favourite in the band… Reminding me when I was still very young…

Ronan, Shane, Mikey, Keith and all who feel the lost of him… Be strong…

March 17, 1976 – October 10, 2009… Rest In Peace.. Stephen Patrick David Gately… God blesses you…

I’m A DOT!

I’m a DOT~!! My DOT number is 1324~! Quite CooL~ Hehehe… I’m in Michael’s Right Eye…Yeah! RIGHT EYE baby~!! I really want to buy the shirt!

We need to reach 1,000,000 dots.  There are already more than 230,000 dots at the moment. A million fans I think is possible! Spread! Spread! Spread! 

In This Empty World

Life… Life… Life… I seriously don’t understand why seems everything is always wrong… I feel like time is flying fast while I’m still standing here without anything changed at all…

While people surround me seem not to even give a damn… When people keep complaining about their lives… crying like there’s no tomorrow… They will feel sympathize to them… Asking how they feel… Protect them…

While me…

I feel so worthless…. Will someone cry for me if I die… I almost never complain about anything… I could say life is hard… I can’t do what I really want to do. Though I want to complain.. I do it to my own self… When I am sick… I will take care of myself. I will cure my own self… When I get a trouble… I almost never ask for help… I will try to resolve it by myself. But what people think…

They said that I was strong… They said that they didn’t care too much about me… They said they didn’t need to worry about me… They said to give attention more to another instead to me…

Someone even said to me… “You’re such a selfish person. Our live is like this but seems you just enjoy your life.”

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Sometimes I feel ashamed with my own self who unable to solve my own problem. Nothing’s wrong with everything surrounds me… The problem is in me…. It’s me… It’s always me… I have no right to complain about anything…

Someone enlighten me please… I feel like dying…

This Kind Of Sweet Dream?

I had lot of dreams last night but there was one dream… We (me and him) were getting on the bus. Both of us were wearing blue clothes, almost the same outfits. He wore a white-gray beanies. In the bus he was sitting next to me, so close… That moment I pretended falling asleep. ( O M B~!! The thing that I’ll never do in this real life!! Well~ maybe~ ) So my head unintentionally fell on his shoulder~ ( Oh Gosh!!! Of course it was intentionally, I was pretending to fall asleep~ ). As I laid my head on his shoulder I felt so comfort. I really could feel his shoulder. It was like I could smell the fragrance of his body. I can’t describe it. It was so so comfort and felt so real. I can’t understand very well but a part of my body could feel his heartbeat and it was beating hard, very hard. It was like “Yeah… He loves me!” and he knew it! Oh My Gosh~~!!

And who was that man? He was Mickey~!!

오~~ 난 진짜 미치겠다~!!! I’m really crazy! In time I have stopped supporting him, in time I start to delete any videos where he appeared, yeah, I’ll admit it’s kinda hard plus day by day his fans are even more annoying, and last night I had this dream~???

This Green Car

Yes, it’s an old car but I don’t want to separate with her…Yeah it’s just a car but she’s been with us for about 12 years… You might think I’m crazy because many people see car as a dead thing. That’s why mom called me crazy cause I like keeping the trash. I’m trying to change it though sometimes it’s like the stuff said “Don’t throw me away”. I’m crazy I think.

I hate myself who has no money. I wanted her to be with me, not just until I can make my dreams to build an animals shelter but when we help the animals in need. I saw the back of the car when she was leaving the house… and when I’m imagining it now.. I feel so sad… I’m so sorry…

The True Angel

When I read in the internet, I was reading it over and over again hoping that I was wrong or wishing that it was just a bad joke…I still feel like it’s a dream that he has already gone. When I suddenly remember about him, his face will come to my mind and I was like man… this man has already gone…? He’s not on this earth anymore. It’s impossible…

I’ve never stated myself as Michael’s fan. I think because my fandom wasn’t as crazy as know since I’ve been more into K-Pop for this past few years. Been listening to his music since I was little, I purely loved and enjoyed his music and admired him as a great artist and humanitarian. First album of Michael that I bought was INVINCIBLE. It was 8 years ago. It was a great album. After that, I started to collect another his album and singles. I did feel pity about his life… wondering why had to be like that. I only depended to magazine-internet wasn’t like today about his news and nothing much. … I heard about the allegation but I always believed that he was innocent.

I really never thought I will feel such a lost with his death. I feel like there’s a little hole in my heart. I don’t know… I just never though that he will leave us so fast. I did think that he would have had long life and getting older and older. But I was wrong….

Since that day I’m totally back to his songs… Listening to his songs over and over again… Singing what he had written in his song… I’m digging deeper about him…. Reading the articles… Seeing what he had done to our world… Seeing how he had gone through so much and the pain.. Finding the truth… I just realize how beautiful he is…

He is just so beautiful…

He loves kids very much and always care for them but tell me why you have to leave your children so fast… I just remembered about one of your songs Heaven Can Wait, Could you ask the angel to bring you back…?

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From that, we all know how he loves his children. How he loves all kids on earth. He might not be a perfect role. He did make mistake but that imperfection is the thing that make him as a human being, a normal human being who also need love and affection. I do feel he’s a lonely person. Michael is just a big kid who loves to play and laugh…

Seeing how people said bad even harsh things about him, I realize how heartless human being can be. I’m not going to say anything about you guys. It’s shameful for me and Michael if I attack you back. I believe though MJ is hurt for being told bad, he will forgive all of you. He’s a nice guy with a gentle heart. He is a sweetheart… I just wish you guys will open your heart a little bit to what this great man has done to this world.

God blesses all of his children, all his family, friends and fans who love him and yeah.. God blesses you.. Michael Jackson. You are blessed.

King Of Pop Has Gone

I was terribly shocked when I read this. Never thought in my mind I would read this when browsing the internet. Michael Jackson has passed away. I couldn’t believe this. Tears were falling down as I watched this news on TV and his appearance sang Heal The World with the children. It was just last night I watched Super Junior sang this song in Open Concert and I said about how old was this song but it was always beautiful.

Despite of controversies he made-becoming a Muslim was something that shocked me the most-though I’m still not sure or what other people have thougth about his appearance, I don’t care and I still think that he is one of greatest singers. I love listen to his songs and of course!! Seeing his moonwalk! He rocks while singing Bad but you can hear the gentle voice when listen to Heal The World or You Are Not Alone. No one can sing and dance like him.

Again, I lost one of great musicians. Our legend Michael Jackson, Rest In Peace.